Atmosphere

this one will be short, possibly. 

I am simply pissed. Because I am pissed at someone who deserves to get pissed at but I promised myself to not get pissed at that person cause if I do, I will always be pissed at him and then I’ll be not pissed ever, and that’s not healthy.

Second, I may have a negative emotion towards my sister. I think of her in not-so-kind ways. Speak of her as if she’s some half-wit who only cares about sex boys and nails. I don’t trust her 80% of the time and my respect for her lowers by the day. And I am starting to feel bad. She’s my bloody sister after all.

Oh and yeah, I keep precious friends precious but I don’t think they do the same for me. So I am going to cut communications (aka FACEBOOK) and just be.

It’s easier to complain about them not talking to me if I know they have a way to talk to me. If they don’t have a way, I can forgive easily. 

*Sometimes I want to die and just see how people would react. =)) I try to be bloody nice to people and I really think I should stop.